Truth Telling Tuesdays is here (and yes I just created it)
Lately, I have been posting pictures of my life but not sharing my life.
I have been reflecting on this, as I know and believe, for myself to have the freedom to grow my business and my impact, sharing myself is key. Sharing myself is THE key. And yet I still havnt been. Some of that is due to fear and of that fear, a portion of that goes to what you will think of me.
Gulp. Yes. If I am being honest, I want your approval. I wish I didnt but its true. I want to be accepted and loved buttt I also don’t want to do that with any screens or masks or disillusions. So here I am.What will follow is a portion of a list I started last week, and continue to add to. I feel more and more free as the list keeps growing.
Perhaps you will see yourself in some of these, perhaps you will hit the unfollow button or feel called to share a truth of your own.
Whatever it evokes, I am ready for it. I trust you are too. Even as my heart beats faster and faster. Because this one, it isn’t for you. This post is for me.
Its important to me that I be clear that I don’t believe everyone has to do this, and depending on circumstances this wouldnt be the most loving thing one could do. But for me, right now, it is.
Here are some of my (perceived) biggest/darkest/scariest inner experiences(that I am learning to love myself for and through.)
To also want to be clear. I am well. Really really well and this is absolutely not an invitation to offer advice but rather an invitation to see me at a deeper level, through my fear and into *some* of my truths. Tuesdays just got a little more interesting for me.
Ahh courage. How you have always bred so much freedom for me. My deepest of gratitudes to you:
-I have stretch marks and no baby and I have shamed myself for that in the past. No more. I have come to love my bodies ability to hold me through all of my growth.
-I once told a boy, who asked what they were, that my stretch marks were dog scratches. I can laugh at the absurdity of that now and send love love to the girl who wasn’t ready to claim her skin.....................
Phewf. Thats all that fits. Til next Tuesday️